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Sometimes it feels so surreal. I’m living the dreams I had as a kid– the ones I gave up on as a beaten down adult. It makes me reflect on the long, twisted road that led me here. The journey’s been full of pain, confusion, and dark detours… but somehow I made it here. Now, I feel like my life’s just starting to unfold 
I remember growing up and going to concerts, Broadway shows– watching performers do their thing. I was fascinated by it and daydreamed of being a musician, actress, dancer, singer… I’d always felt disconnected from people around me, and had really severe social anxiety. The only way I knew how to communicate was through creative expression.
The problem was that I lacked confidence and didn’t trust myself… I thought I was too shy to ever be a performer. These last few years– getting into synths, meeting m.0, moving to San Francisco– have helped me unlock these buried dreams again… and they’re even better than how I envisioned them
Last week, my hula class put on a show– it was my first dance performance ever! I came full circle back to those childhood dreams. I was no longer in the audience fascinated and mystified– but on stage performing and expressing. Through tapping into my passions and life experience, I was able to form that connection with others I’d yearned for growing up. Instead of focusing on my “flaws” and shortcomings, I let the inspiration flow through me. And it did!
It just goes to show that the only thing stopping us from living our dreams is OURSELVES. We make excuses, self-sabotage, keep ourselves trapped in situations. If you just take the risk, trust yourself, and stay true to what you love… the whole world will open up to you. Everything you need to create your own destiny is inside you already! 
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After weeks of pushing hard on the album, I felt super run down and came down with the flu 
So I had the luxury of a few lazy nights, then it was back to the studio! Since I lost some time being sick, I put in extra hours on the album… and came up with pretty raw, emotional recordings
I rang in 2012 with an overdub marathon– tweaking Baby Virus, recording melodies, and finishing up one of our most personal songs ever. I’m pretty sure this is a good omen
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We’ve been working nonstop on these last few songs… so it was time to step away from the album for a night and recharge. We didn’t even have to leave Command Central®!
We broke out the camera and lights, got some beats bumpin’, and had a super fun photo shoot. It’s been FOREVER since our last one… and m.0′s photography obsession and my makeup addiction have only gotten worse 
It was an awesome night off… now, back to the album!
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It’s late.
Just me and Baby Virus.
Only one thing needs to be done…
Slip down the rabbit hole.
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Yay! Baby Virus is now getting a chance to shine on the album 
I went on such an emotional journey working on the last track (including a slight meltdown… but that’s more fuel for the fire), and am gonna keep riding this wave.
No matter how dark things have gotten, Baby Virus has been there to guide me. He’s given me a voice, and makes me believe in dreams I’d long given up on.
Cyborg Mommy and Baby have reunited… and life is fuzzier than ever!
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Yay! I finished recording all my Virus parts last week (TONS of psychedelic iLLness on this track), and knocked out the arrangement over the weekend. Another song passed off to m.0 for some mix magic
Only 3 more songs to finish… TOTALLY excited about where the album is headed. Think you guys will be in for some sonic surprises
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Alright guys, this is the final push. Just a couple songs to go until we’re done with the album!
As we launch into this intense phase, we’re gonna change up the schedule for dejaded and the Studio Diaries. Instead of the usual Monday posts, we’ll be posting up Studio Diaries during the week. This way, we can get super focused on the last few songs… and give you a more candid glimpse into our album process
Also, today we celebrate our 2-year NRversary of moving to San Francisco! It’s been the most amazing and life-changing experience, bringing us closer and making us blossom into our true selves. We are so guided and inspired by this beautiful city… time to take this energy and put it back into some songs!
PS: The “Yes, oh my gosh!” is from the amazing speedstackinggirl on YouTube. Skrillex has sampled her in a bunch of his tracks. Check out her video here! She’s got crazy skills.
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This weekend, it was time to shut off the outside world and immerse in NR’s creative playground
I continued working on a song that I’d already programmed ambiences for. I wanted more edgy, percussive elements that would cut through all the whooshy textures. Something to make the beat bounce a little bit more.
You know how I roll… I got out the candles and wine, turned off my phone and closed the blinds. I slipped into a beautiful, psychedelic journey and bonded with the SkriLLascope on a deeper level.
Synthesizers are what started me on this amazing journey with NR. Now they’re unlocking a whole new side of my brain and my heart. I’ve been undergoing a profound spiritual transformation during the making of our album… and this is only the beginning
PS: The song at :32 is “Nerds with Attitude” by Nerd Revolt.
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We made it through September in one piece! We got tons done, and are now officially halfway through the album. Yay!
It can be challenging to manage energy/stress levels and still keep motivated, productive, and focused. The whole process has been physically exhausting, mentally demanding… but so creatively rewarding!
Emotions are running high, inspiration’s coming on strong, and we’re getting the first taste of what the album will sound like. Alright, let’s hit the second half now! >:)
